Other random personal reactions from the experience...
- It's an awkward feeling to not be selected by a panel that consists of many people you know personally. Do they think less of me? Have I been tainted by losing in front of them? Have I somehow been exposed? Such questions run through my mind (though I know the answer in each case is "no").
- I am actively trying to resist the tendency to place inordinate weight for the end result on my interview performance. I consciously tell myself that even had I answered each question perfectly, it wouldn't have been enough to overcome the experience advantage that others had over me.
- I am heading into administration from the starting point of being a capable teacher. But to be selected as an administrator (and then do an adequate job), I need to fill in the sizable gaps in my knowledge of the systems, tools, procedures, and structures that make our district operate smoothly.
- It's important for me to accept all of this in a positive manner. Children learn from their parents, and I want to be an example to my daughters about how to handle setbacks in life.
Sorry to hear you didn't get what you were hoping for, my friend, but it sounds as though you're taking it very well. It's a temporary setback and, as you say, a good learning experience and a great opportunity to model resiliency for your daughters. With more experience, your time will come.
ReplyDeleteThank you, George! I'm an amazingly lucky person to even have the opportunity to test my professional mettle in a situation like this. To maintain some semblance of control over my destiny in this age is a true luxury.
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